I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

First I want to start off, because I totally forgot about this yesterday, with what Kaitlyn was asking in the car on the way to the mall!!! OMG! We're driving on the way there and all of a sudden from the backseat we hear Kaitlyn ask something... at first we didn't really hear her so I asked her to repeat herself - and got scolded! "I was asking DADDY!" Well... excuse me! lol Anyway, so she asks (after taking the loooooong sentence around) "how do they get the meat from cows?" WHAT?!?!?! I looked at Jon with bugged out eyes... because, like we're really going to tell her HOW they get the meat from cows? Anyway, daddy says "there are different parts of a cow where different kinds of meat comes from..." you KNOW that wasn't good enough lol She starts again... "No, no, no, Daddy... but HOW does the meat COME from the cow. Cows make milk, I know... but where does the meat come from?" Well this type of questioning went on awhile and we kept trying to get around it but finally Jon came to the answer of "well, I dont get the meat from the cow so I'm not sure exactly HOW." And I added, for good measure, maybe when you are older you can ask a chef! LoL It was crazy... she really wanted to know!

So on to the post! This morning seemed great, it's Tuesday and K loves school on Tuesday with the one teacher and only six kids! YAY! She got there, changed into her sneakers and went into the gym without a hitch! YAY again! Then... DUN DUN DUNNNNNNN... I picked her up. We got there and she was getting her coat on and changing into her snow boots and all that and then was yanking on me to get out of there as if she couldnt leave fast enough. She had the blankest look on her face, almost mopey and I asked her how her day was... she just kept her head down and said "boring." Which, DING! DING! DING! mom knows, is her default word for any "bad feeling." So... I tried to get it out of her on the way to the car, what was wrong but all I got was that she was "tired (yeah I could see that) and bored." Finally, IN the car, the truth comes out. I got her talking about her day with our *Rule: Must tell us 1 thing about your day. So she told me... and she was SOOOOO sad!!! She said "I tried to play and tried not to but I got frustrated." OMG OMG OMG OMG I'm freaking out that she is actually TALKING ABOUT HER FEELINGS!!!! YAY!!!!! So, holding it together, I questioned a little more and got what I needed! she finally, today, after all this time was able to tell me that she had a hard time playing with the other kids!!! Sounds stupid to be excited about that but it just means she is starting to understand it... that that type of thing doesnt come easy for her... that she will need help with it and will need to work on it! YAY!!! She's GETTING it!!! She's only FOUR!!! hahahaha

Ok so what I managed to get out of it all was that she had a fine time playing in the gym since it wasnt much back and forth play. Then they went up to the classroom and while they were playing playdoh and she asked for things and they were given to her or was doing things her way she was fine. THEN it got to a point where she tried playing with the other kids (not sure doing what) and they wanted to play a certain way and not her way... she said it made her very frustrated and upset. So I explained to her that it was ok for her to feel that way and that, for her, it's a little hard to play with other kids and understand when they can be so confusing. It is VERY confusing to her when at one point they will do "her will" and then all of a sudden they have their own ideas and plans!! She doesnt understand WHY they wont listen to her anymore or play "her way."

Anyway, I'm just glad to see that SHE is actually getting somewhere in this emotional/neurological mess she is in. There is so much hope for my little girl and she just needs the help and the push in the right direction. I wish we could get her there but it's going to be a fight to the end and I see it now. Hopefully over the summer we can get her into the program at Crossroads and she will have a fighting chance before Kindergarten!